I was in a selfish
funk yesterday and finally got done what I wanted to do. Every time my son came home from school or
the coffee shop I asked him when he was going to leave or wash the dishes. I closed the door to my bedroom. I told him I could not concentrate on my
videos because he was here!
For the
first time I can remember he did not make smart remarks about getting back to
my astrology. He did the dishes. He said he wasn’t listening. He left me alone.
I finished
and uploaded the first video to YouTube.
It was a big step that was years in the making. Years of figuring out just what the signs
actually mean, and years of developing the technical skills to communicate that
in a 5 minute video. I should also mention
years of learning how to treat my son with enough respect that he knew how to
give that same respect to me when it really mattered.
Venus approaching Saturn in Scorpio. Mars approaching Pluto. It is a very serious
time, but as I look on FaceBook today I am seeing some of the coolest videos
posted by friends. One of the peacock
spider, well filmed with a great soundtrack and one of a woman in her 70’s or 80’s
doing a beautiful routine on the parallel bars.
Someone had pizza delivered by an artist that created these incredible works. Today is one of those days FB really rocks.
You would
think the Moon is in Leo instead of Gemini, it feels that good. But since Mercury is still in Libra, at the
very end as I write this, we associate this lift with the Moon being
disposited by the messenger in the sign of the harvest. If that last sentence looks like a bunch of gobbled
gook it’s because you are still not comfortable with the concept of
dispositors. Don’t worry. One day you’ll skip over that chain of
planets in their order of rank like a free child hopping from one stone to the next
across the creek in their neighborhood.
Meanwhile I
hope these videos will help give a sense of the reality in heaven that the
zodiac is meant to help us understand. I
know for myself there are many days that the so called meaning we read in the
symbols feels like self deception. I am
suspicious of my own mind wanting to see something and imagining a reality that
is not actually there. On those days,
this mechanical view of the zodiac gives me a direct connection to the ancients
and reminds me that yes they were geniuses and no I am not wasting my time.
Venus
approaching Saturn is hard for Venus,
but the tough job for Venus is a help for Saturn. The discipline of Saturn, the necessity imposed
by our limited existence in time, helps Venus take its work seriously.
This week I
demanded more of my son and the children I help in school. I
pushed and stood firm and accepted no excuses.
My voice rose. When the young 2nd
grader complained that he was tired I reminded him that both his mother and I
would prefer to be resting instead of standing over him pushing him to sound
out words. I was disappointed in my own
behavior. But I was astonished at his
progress. He took intellectual leaps
that required great courage. He was
challenged and he rose to the high level of expectation.
Venus in
Scorpio is not pretty, and it is serious as hell when it gets near Saturn. But the important work gets done, that’s for
sure.
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